Have you ever been betrayed?
It's like a big black hole you can't fill. A thirst that can never be quenched. A need that can't ever be fulfilled.
Betrayal looks like an invisible mask. It's dark and unappealing. Every time you look at the face of your betrayer, all you see is that mask. It's almost gruesome.
Betrayal is lloud. And infuriating. When your betrayer talks, it's all you hear. And in your head, it's all you can think about.
It's ever present.
Betrayal is blind sighting. You can't see true betrayal coming. Like something that falls on you from above. Or sideswipes you unexpectedly.
It's physical. It takes your breath away. The moment you realize it happened, the air stops circulating in the room. It feels like someone punched you in the stomach. It hurts. Aches. A lot.
Betrayal is like unwinding a pretzel. Breaking something in half. Or ruining a favorite shirt. It's unfixable. Finite.
Which is why, it really sucks.