My fear
I have this fear of standing still. Everywhere I go, and everything I do, I'm constantly making sure I'm not just standing still. I hate waiting in lines. I hate traffic. And I hate when I look back a year prior and I haven't made any progress. I literally despise the feeling of being stagnant. On the flipside, I love the feeling of moving forward. Ugh, but I'm terrified of change. It's such a conundrum. It's so scary to do something new. I remember as a kid, one day I stopped and realized that the day would come when school would end for good. It hit me like a ton of bricks. I realized that one day I might stop learning. It was a horrible feeling. Now as an adult, I remind myself every New Year's Eve that next year should be different somehow—improved. I think about what I want to learn. What do I want to do differently. This year, New Years came in May. And I have a big goal in mind.
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